A Mother Fucking Tumblr

My teens read my tumblr too often for me to be completely truthful.

barelyblue asked: Its hard to believe the courts lets him get away with that. You obviously don't live in South Carolina. He'd be facing jail time.

The last time I brought him to court for contempt, the judge told me in open court that he’s not going to put my ex in jail, because “we all know he’s not going to pay his support.”  When I filed for divorce, he told me (in front of our kids) that he would make me and our kids homeless, living under the interstate.  He is doing everything he can to live up to that promise.  I have lost all faith in the judicial system.

My ex has either quit his second job or is getting paid cash now to avoid me garnishing his wages.  There’s nothing I can do.  He wins.  He gets to fuck me over, and I can’t do anything about it.  I have to figure out how to raise four kids without money.

I want to take Kid #3 and Kid #4 and run off to the beach and hide.  FTW.

I am scheduling tumblr time on Friday night, so I can witness you getting shit faced.  

Btw… Those two guys that want you to rent a house with them?  Women prefer men that have their own place.  If you want to have a girlfriend and/or get laid, you’re better off living alone.

I slept in MY bed let night.  I slept like the dead.  I am so glad that trip is behind me.  I am more of a hang out on the beach for a few days kind of chick.  I don’t like strict schedules and being rushed from place to place.  At times, we’d just sit down to eat and be told it was time to leave again.  The girls hung in there though.  10-12 year old girls all did as they were told and there were just a few attitudes by the end of it all.  I was mostly impressed by Kid #4.  He’s only 6, and he was just tagging along on this trip.  He put up with all of the bullshit, didn’t act up at all, and hung in there until the end.  He’s a great kid.  

There is no way I will be able to scroll and catch up on a week of tumblr that I missed.  Can someone give me the highlights?  Have I missed anything important?  What have you all be up to for the last week??

It is great to be home.  Things are a bit off though, and Kid #1 and Kid #2 are sharing these strange looks and grins.  Something happened while I was gone.  The house isn’t destroyed, but things are moved around.  I asked them if they had a party, and they kept looking at each other as they denied it.  Little liars.  The back yard is even a bit of a mess.  They have no idea what I have done as a teen.  I know better.  We had the police out to our parties, had to swim through empty beer cans to get from one room to another, and had to repair damage to houses before parents came home, and we got away with it.  I came home a day early and didn’t tell them.  I loved that surprised look on their faces.

I am sort of online on my nook… typing issues and all. I cant scroll on this thing and see more than the last few posts added. Competition went well. Kid #3 placed in a few divisions including a first place. We are all exhausted. The two little ones were begging me to find a hotel, so they could go to sleep. I did, and they are sleeping.

I have really enjoyed my time with them. They are great kids, and we have had a lot of laughs and hugs this week. I even got some extra special time with kid #4 while kid #3 was busy with her team. I treasure those one on one moments.

I will be home tomorrow, one day early. Yay! I am so glad to be going home. I love seeing my daughter compete, but i sure hate the dynamics of competition. Im too laid back for this lifestyle.

You had to do this before i was offline, tumblr? When boyfriend got locked up (contemt, his ex, see previous posts), i cried nonstop for days. It then tapered off to several times each day for weeks. Now im ok most of the time unless something big hits me and i remember a wonderful moment we had together. I also get upset when my ex is acting up a lot, like recently, and boyfriend isnt available for moral support. He was my best friend before he was my boyfriend. He has been there for me through all of this, ever since my ex had his first affair. It is very hard for me to do this without him.